Changing For the Sake of Karma

Too often, we all tend to slip into one cliche or another without even realizing we have done so until the deed has already been done and we are caught in the act. My mentor once taught me, that If I choose to live a certain way, I will do so, but If I choose not too, it takes much more work. I didn't quite understand what he meant by that, but as I got older, it became more and more clear to me the inevitable point missed back then. I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if I would do what I have been taught to do and simply forgive and forget. It is not exactly as simple as that. In order to truly forget, one must forgive, then remember. We all must remember what we once did, why we did it, remember the outcome and spot the trouble signs and occasional red flags in order to never let our past mistakes happen again.

I often think about karma, which is one thing I know a lot about, being a former bad boy, myself. I think about who I hurt, what I've done, why I did it and I try to analyze the situation in it's entirety. Why I did some of the things I did when I was younger, I will never know. I do know that I can only live in the present time and live for today. That being stated, I have to remember that the energy I send out into the universe will indeed be returned unto me several times over. If I treat someone badly, I will undoubtedly be treated horribly in return. Maybe not right then, but most definitely in the near or far future. It is a simple act of fate. The same goes for a good deed. If I treat someone good, then I will be treated with good in return. This is not only true for me, but for any and everyone else. My mother once told me, as a child, "If you believe in a magic spell or a curse of any sort, it only feeds the power of the spell or curse, therefore it will come true and either harm or bless you." Again, I didn't know any better but to believe what she said, but in a different way. Today, I know that it is not quite the same principle of the situation applies with karma. You don't have to believe in karma for it to work. Somehow, someway it happens and it works... all too well. I should know. I dabbled in negative karma for far too long.

In today's modern society, people in the demographic of 13 to 21 tend to be quite ignorant of the power of karma. Too often kids will see something they find 'cool' and it is monkey see-monkey do all day long. As well as negative judgment and just negativity in general. Why? Because society is choosing that route these days. When I was a kid and even a teen, if somebody did something wrong, they were punished and learned never to do it again, but now, I have no idea why things have changed and stayed this way, but they have, unfortunately. Personally, I still believe in a clean, positive doing good unto others type of society. Of course, this type of society is seemingly fictional and utopean. At any rate, I do not let what I have learned faulter, I choose to maintain my upward spiral and even though it is going to be knowingly difficult, I will be rewarded and I will prevail. People in the demographic of 22 to 29 seem to mostly wonder in a perpetual dream state from which they will not wake until they reach the glorious 3-0. This demographic tends to sheepishly focus on the impossible and the unusual. Dropping comments on everything they see and hear due to "knowing it all" having passed puberty and claiming their new found independence, if any. When I turned 30, I can't precisely describe what happened, but in a nutshell I woke up and snapped out of my dream state. I felt more alive and saw things more clearly, with ease and a fresh mind set. I felt like a newborn baby on a Spring morning, anew.

Perhaps there is no reason in description as to why we all tend to be so negative or why, but all I know is that there is a VERY inescapable, global truth to why we shouldn't be. It is called Karma. I once knew a girl who would remain so self centered and self absorbed, she couldn't leave the house without a compliment. Every single day she would approach me just fishing for praise of some kind. One day I decided to test her and I asked, "why do you do that? Why do you put yourself in a position of such ignorance to others and only concentrate on yourself?" Of course, I only got oblivious questions in return "like, what are you talking about? I'm am like, so beautiful and like, so HOT and nobody is even like, noticing me. ugh!" Rolling my eyes at this, I couldn't resist but let her in on it. "That is because you have come in here for two years pushing and fishing for compliments from everybody who works here and eventually, we all got so sick and tired of your disgusting vanity that we decided to ignore you the way you ignore all of us... that is, unless you want another ego boost you call a compliment. Sweetie, these people, myself included, no longer care about you because all you truly care about is yourself. After two whole years, of the same old song and dance, do you really think that I or any other person here will honestly dignify this horrid display of vanity?" She stood there for a good minute, in airhead time, this is over an hour. "Ugh, whatever, I'm like, totally sick of all of you crazy mean people anyways. There are plenty of other hot guys who will pay good money to compliment me. It is not my fault I was blessed with good looks and you all were born ugly trolls," said the airhead and stomped away in her Manolo Bloniks. We all felt sorry for her for various reasons, but last I heard, she became overweight, was involved in a nearly fatal car accident and now uses prostetics on her face because she couldn't afford the plastic surgery.

As human beings, we are all equipped with sensors and chemicals in our brain that enable us to understand when we are doing something bad or wrong. More often than not, we do it anyway because it feels good and /or someone else did it too, hence monkey see- monkey do. The trick to changing this pattern is changing our selves into feeling bad when we do something wrong or doing something bad instead of feeling good. If we continue to feel good about doing bad things, we will never change as a society. What good will man kind be for if only for negative actions? A startling thought, I know, but it is food for thought none the less. I used to teach at high schools across the state I live in. The things I would hear and would see baffled me. Is this the future of this country? Is this who will take care of us? They can't even take care of themselves. It is truly shocking.

I know there is still some good in all of us, but when do we let it out? Laughing is a sign of good, but what do we laugh at anymore? Hurting others? Injuring others? Killing others? That is not the society I signed up for nor is it the world I want to live in when I am older. I do not want to bring children into this kind of world. I still believe that there is hope and that there is still time. Time to change. Change usually comes from within and only if we want to change. I believe there is still time for a positive change in this country and this world. All we have to do is start within ourselves and get rid of all that is negative and bad. If not for the sake of ourselves, then for the sake of the betterment of this country and this world in general. Karma is nothing to take for granted. If we continue to do wrong and bad things onto others, then only bad and wrong will be done onto us in return and who will win in the end?

If we start fresh, like a new born baby with a clean slate in this world, and do good onto others, then surely only good and right will be returned onto us. It is never too late to make the positive change.